Dead Again

Take my hand let’s take off
Together, now,
Pull the drapes, gulp the pill
Let’s laugh somehow

Burn the future, no debate
Just close your eyes
Let’s spoil time, misbehave
Show me around

This is it ,our fate, destroy
Right, now,
Wear a cape, fly away
Paradise

Goes around, comes around
I’m fallin down
You won’t be there, never sane
Paranoid frown

I’ll be there in the train
Waiting for you to come
Catch the plane, let me down
Perfect nightmare, run-down,
Let it shine, let it rain
I know you’ll kill me again

Ginger June

She was the ginger he liked from school

She was insecure, but acted kinda cool

And he, a self-crowned king, who didn’t rule

Anything

He watched her ride her bike everyday

Her summer dress swaying in the air

While he sat on his car and smoked as he dreamt

Away

Swimming in the lake on a summer noon

There she was beside him, ginger June

He blinked and she was gone, than he dreamt in the

Full moon

She glanced at him one time, in the park

He spent a lifetime with her in a spark

That night in the dark, the king ruled

Everything.

Spoken Words

I squeezed my thighs in-between the stools

after a long struggle… I sat down.

I took out one of my Dunhills from the red, fancy box

I took out my pen and notebook.

Cigarette after cigarette and puff after puff

I wondered what would be the best poem to recite

“spoken words” they call it ( don’t ask me “who are they?”)

but mine are hidden behind a strange white fog coming out of my mouth.

No… It doesn’t rhyme

and it doesn’t really matter

Whatever works.

 

The shiver must have kicked in by now

The stuttering is most probably taking place,

and the guy sitting two stools away

is worse at his words than I am.

He said he found a new job

I asked him where

he shrugged and said:

“I don’t know.”

Well, fuck you too.

 

I hold up my pint and take another swig,

It’s the best thing to do.

AIDS In The Mail

Cinnamon flavored toilet paper
Priest a rapist, lawyer viper
Smartphones, lost souls, plastic ducks
Bankers pimping your mothers bucks
Your face will be priceless
When the platypus rocks

Mass media massacre, pesticides
Suicides, rotten prides, genocides
Sodomizing terrorists, aids in the mail
My head is in orbit, your future is on sale

Well that’s it folks
You spilled all the yolks
Keep stroking the hoax
Your face will be priceless
When the platypus rocks.

God Damn Loan

Bored of college, hair full of dandruff
A sip, a gulp, a snort, a puff
From coffee shops to bookshops
My route all-known,
I still have to pay that goddamn loan

Backdoor-man, poet of windows
Blondes, brunettes and indigos
Different dorm, different moan,
I still have to pay that goddamn loan

Janitor’s son, shame and misfortune
Alchemist, pessimist, three-legged urchin
No phone, no crown, no comfort zone,
I still have to pay that goddamn loan

God, Satan, Jah, George Carlin
The Doors, Sabbath, Floyd and Zeppelin
Crucified, burnt, missing or blown
I still have to pay that goddamn loan.

Bobbed Up (read it aloud)

Berny, Brando, and Betty the Bimbo

Were all Balbo’s bambinos

And the siblings of the good boy, Bob

Who was, in fact, quite a bore.

 

But bad things happen to boys like Bob;

Bob’s been beaten, and Bob’s been robbed

No good comes out of being good, God knows!

Best not be a boy like Bob.

 

And if that’s not the worst you’ve heard,

You must have never learned

That Bob disappeared, and reappeared

But –

 

The bits and bobs of brother Bob

Came in a tiny box!

And the bigger, bloody parts

In a black body bag.

Dostoevsky’s Devils: Sentences Full of Flavor

When I’m drunk and discussing philosophy, I always tell my existentialist friends that Fyodor Dostoevsky was actually the one who breastfed both Sartre and Camus, and, of course, they all agree. There’s no debate in that. Also, I like to use the word ‘breastfeed’. But more of that later.
Here are some of my favorite sentences from Dostoevsky’s Devils (or The Possessed or Demons depending on the translation). I was also kind enough to put the page numbers in case you would like to quote Dostoevsky in your future essays.

 

1- ‘I seem to be ready for work, my materials are collected, yet the work doesn’t get done! Nothing is done!’ (p 18)
2- They were all strangely proud of something. On every face was written that they had only just discovered some extremely important secret. (p 20)
3- There are natures extremely attached to home like lapdogs. (p 26)
4- He doesn’t deserve to be loved by a woman at all, but he deserves to be loved for his helplessness, and you must love him for his helplessness. (p 66)
5- “But I only seek the causes why men dare not kill themselves.” (p. 110)
6- ‘Man fears death because he loves life. That’s how I understand it,’ I observed, ‘and that’s determined by nature.’

‘That’s abject; and that’s where the deception comes in.’ His eyes flashed. ‘Life is pain, life is terror, and man is unhappy…’ (p 111)
7- ‘God is the pain of the fear of death.’ (p 112)
8- He who kills himself only to kill fear will become a god at once.’ (p 112)
9- ‘… marriage is the moral death of every proud soul, of all independence.’ (p 119)
10- ‘Look on it as a poem and no more, for, after all, poetry is nonsense and justifies what would be considered impudence in prose.’ (p 127)
11- He looked as though he were expecting the destruction of the world, and not at some indefinite time in accordance with prophecies, which might never be fulfilled, but quite definitively, as though it were to be the day after tomorrow at twenty-five minutes past ten. (p 132)
12- ‘… Shatov, damn the manifestos, eh?’
13- Even fools are by genuine sorrow turned into wise men, also only for a short time of course; it is characteristic of sorrow. (p 197)
14- ‘… to assume the part of a fool, because it is easier to be a fool than to act one’s own character.’ (p 212)
15- ‘And why do I use so many words, and why do I never speak well? Because I don’t know how to speak. People who can speak well, speak briefly.’ (p 212)
16- ‘Man is unhappy because he doesn’t know he’s happy.’ (p 229)
17- ‘It’s good for all those who know that it’s all good. If they knew that it was good for them, it would be good for them, but as long as they don’t know it’s good for them, it will be bad for them.’ (p 229)
18- ‘He who teaches that all are good will end the world.’ (p 230)
19- ‘Socialism is from its very nature bound to be atheism.’ (p 241)
20- ‘It’s a sign of decay of nations when they begin to have gods in common.’ (p 242)
21- ‘The stronger the people the more individual their God.’ (p 242)
22- ‘I’m a man of no talent, and can only give my blood, nothing more, like every man without talent.’ (p 245)
23- ‘It seems, in fact, as though the second half of a man’s life is usually made up of nothing but the habits he has accumulated during the first half.’ (p 255)
24- ‘Charity corrupts giver and taker alike.’ (p 330)
25- ‘Charity ought to be forbidden by law, even in the present state of society. In the new regime there will be no poor at all.’ (p 330)
26- ‘Persuade four members of the circle to do for a fifth on the pretence that he is a traitor, and you’ll tie them all together with the blood they’ve shed as though it were a knot.’ (p 375)
27- ‘Clever people don’t believe, I dare say; but that’s because of their cleverness. But you, chicken, what do you know about God?’ (p 385)
28- ‘No one has a mind of his own nowadays. There are terribly few original minds nowadays.’ (p 404)
29- ‘The thirst for culture is an aristocratic thirst. The moment you have family ties or love you get the desire for property.’ (p 405)
30- ‘Only the necessary is necessary.’ (p 406)
31- ‘Boredom is an aristocratic sensation.’ (p 406)
32- ‘The lawyer who defends an educated murdered because he is more cultured than his victims and could not help murdering them to get money is one of us.’ (p 407)
33- ‘How can we expect a cultured man not to commit a murder, if he is in need of money?’ (p 408)
34- ‘You might add the philosopher’s observation that there is always some pleasure to be found in another man’s misfortune.’ (p 443)
35- ‘Who can tell in our day what he may not be arrested for?’ (p 453)
36- ‘Stupidity is of as much service to humanity as the loftiest genius…’ (p 507)
37- ‘I do not wish you much happiness – it will bore you.’ (p 513)
38- ‘The intelligent we shall bring to our side, and as for the fools, we shall mount upon their shoulders.’ (p 626)
39- ‘If Stavrogin has faith, he does not believe that he has faith. If he hasn’t faith, he does not believe that he hasn’t.’ (p 634)
40- ‘Listen: that Man was the loftiest of all on earth, He was that which gave meaning to life. The whole planet, with everything on it, is mere madness without that Man.’ (p 637)
41- Men sentenced to death sleep very soundly, they say, even the night before their execution. (p 648)
42- The hardest thing in life is to live without telling lies. (p 669)
In case you have a question or would like to know more about which character said what and why and when, leave a comment.
To Cite:
MLA: Dostoevsky, Fyodor. Devils. Wordsworth Editions, 2005.
APA: Dostoevsky, F. (2005). Devils. Wordsworth Editions.